It feels like years since the last time I posted here. Blame on the lazy hormone I feel since I become pregnant *errr, does this kind of hormone even exist??ha3*. So, maybe from now I’ll be babbling about my pregnancy and its stuffs here. Please consider this as your future references and a kind of tool that might be read by my future son/daughter. I know, my pregnancy age is still very young (on the 9th week by now), so wish me and pray for me and the baby so we can pass the 9 months successfully.
Wanna know what I think about pregnancy? Being pregnant is not a hundred percent easy. The sacrifice of a mother begins when you see doubtfully the two stripes on your test pack (I even need to be assured by my girl friend that it’s positive, ckckckck). Since then, you’ll feel all other signs that’s showing you’re pregnant. The changing shape of your body. The very moody and emotional feeling that close to craziness. The wondering feeling whether you’re getting old too fast since suddenly you feel very easily tired, sleepy, and memoryless. Aanndd… more gassy, hahahah. One more thing, all pregnant women suddenly become lazy. Sooo lazy. All of those symptoms are natural due to hormonal change, so don’t worry. Take these as benefits, and your husband must understand these.
At first, you can use this pregnancy as your reason to eat much. Wkwkwk.. But on the 5th week, the sacrifice really just began. My appetite drops significantly. Morning and evening sicknesses. I don’t like rice. Many pregnant women also feel the same. So I can only eat lontong, or bubur, or french fries. Many foods I used to like now become disgusting for me. My friends calmed me down, suggest me to eat anything I can eat, and after the 4th month, when the placenta has been formed perfectly, the appetite will come back and increase so crazily. That’s what they and literatures say, BUT I just enter the 3rd month (geez….), so I need to be more patient (fiuhhh). Losing the ability in eating everything is kinda miserable for me, but yeah this is the sacrifice that we must get through.
I’m considered still lucky that I can put some foods into me, coz there are some pregnant women feel worse than me, can’t really eat anything or can’t even get up from their bed (like what my mom felt). Yeah, being a mother isn’t easy. But how hard the pregnancy is, it mustn’t be harder than raising our child when they’re born to the world.
Once you’re declared pregnant by a doctor, you’ll feel the mixture of all kinds of feelings. Happiness, of course. Then comes the fears. You’re afraid you’ll have a miscarriage or something bad will happen to the fetus. Afraid of the painful birthing process. And a bit of worriness, like “When the baby born, will I be able to raise them better than my parents did?” Whatever we feel, we are suggested to just enjoy it, because there are two things that are very restricted for pregnant ladies. One, coffee. And two, the stress feeling. If you feel worried or stressed, read books about pregnancy, read pregnant women discussions on internet, and talk to your husband, your doctor, and your girlfriends. Trust me, our girl friends who have been pregnant are the most helpful ones. 🙂